I made it through this fast without giving in to any temptation. All I had caloire wise, was a V8 V-Fusion and Lemonade. A total calorie intake reaching 55. I am so fucking proud. This is my best day ever. I am in love with fasting.
I had a conversation with my dad in the car. It went like this:
"Hey, dad... I don't want anything for dinner" she said softly as she stared out of the car window.
"Okay, that's fine." Her heart stopped for a moment. Was he seriously saying it was okay? "Just make sure you're getting enough food."
"Oh, I am," says she softly again. She knows she's lying but, oh well. He can't know.
"Good. You do know that starving yourself actually causes you to gain weight," he says, with his voice shaking slightly.
"I know," she whispers. She wants to say, "Actually, only the first couple of days do you gain, but then you loose an insane amount. I would know." She keeps her mouth shut, though. Knowing if she dare mention anything of that sort, her father would surely figure out her dirty little secret. She reached her hand forward and turned the music up louder, signalling that this was the end of the conversation, and she didn't want to mention it again. The rest of the car ride was uneventful and not worth any mention.
Yeah... That's basically how it went. I didn't tell my dad about the fast, until an hour ago. Ha, it's nice being in so much control. I love this feeling. It's a high for me. I can't wait till I can do this all the time. I blame living with my parents for my inhabilty to keep up my Ana-Diet. I can't wait till I go to college and dorm with M-Style and fast for months on end. It keeps me sane.
I lovelovelovelovelove fasting.
~AnaMia124
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