Hate

My throat is burning, my eyes red, my head is killing me, and my stomach is curling into itself. I hatehatehatehatehate purging. No, I don't liek it. I find it as a major punishment. I hate having to punish myself. I hate feeling like a failure. I hate being a failure. I hate myself. I hatehatehatehate myself. I hate myself. I truly hate myself. I deserve this punishment. I deserve it all. I hate this shit.

Food is the enemy.
I am weak.
I give in to the enemy.
I shall forever be fat and ugly.

Someone save me.
Someone make me stronger.
Someone help me.
Someone please.

I don't want to give in anymore.
I don't want to be fat anymore.
I don't want to be ugly anymore.
I don't want to be this anymore.

Save me from this.
Save me from myself.
Save me from food.
Save me!

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Can I just die?~AnaMia124