Neglect

So, I've neglected the blog for about a year. Over this time period, I have lost M-Style, lost almost all of my friends from last year, made new friends, lost them as well, became far more active online, became best friends with a guy who destroyed me in one night (we're slowly becoming friends again), dated someone who mentally and emotionally abused me (2 or 3 times), lost Lovina, gained a shit ton of weight, my mother moved to Ohio, got into Therapy and full on recovery (failing at that), and met my new boyfriend.

Yeah. There's a hell of a whole lot more that has happened, but to say the least it has been an eventful year.

But the part that hurts the most is the weight. I'm almost back up to my HW. I need to lose. I plan on losing about 30-45 lbs (about 2-3 stones) by the end of the year, hopefully sooner.

I've been binging a lot this week, but I blame the fact that my entire mindset Is wacked, as is all of me right now. Going through a hell of a whole lot of flashbacks and been screamed at for eating less.

But this needs to stop. I can't find lax at my gas station any more, they've stopped selling it, and I don't know where else to get it because of the simple fact that I am about to turn 15 in 16 days. I am severely frightened of that fact and I am also like unsure of what this next year is going to bring...

Also, as an update, I haven't purged in like 3 weeks, and I cut/burnt last night.

Question: How have you guys been?

~AnaMia124