Wednesday, May 23, 2012

"Don't be bulimic!"

"Delaney, just don't... Don't be bulimic, okay?"

"Why would I be? Vomit scares me!"

"Okay... Good... I just... Wanted to make sure."

A conversation like this, can leave one's mind frazzled and heart racing. A conversation like this, can cause a binging and purging session. A conversation like this, leaves one terrified of what's going on and who suspects her of having an eating disorder.

A conversation like this, can leave one wondering if she is a bulimic or not. Consistent sessions of binging and purging followed by restriction and no purging, then back to binging and purging... A constant cycle. Abuse of laxatives and stealing mom's diet pills. No loss of period yet...

Am I bulimic? Did I lie to my friends yet again? Is my eating disorder Bulimia Nervosa? Am I something I terrified of being? Am I doing something I swore I would never be?

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